i was reading a book this evening ("Ce que nous voyons, ce qui nous regarde", de Georges Didi-Huberman, could be translated as "What we see, what is looking at us") coming back from my internship, and it made me think of photography
the book is saying, more or less (it's in french) that when we see something we have the feeling of having "won" it, that what we see adds up to our collection of "seen" things, but that at the same time the ephemeral nature of things make that we also have the feeling of losing everything we see. "When seeing is losing" he says.
So i thought that there are three distincts kinds of photography that i practice :
-The "i have this" kind of photographs, or the familiar photographs. what surrounds us. "i have this sister and this is how i will show her to you". "i have this room and this is how it looks like". These photos often look ordinary to those who have a similar universe or the same culture, and although there's less "risk" to take such photos, it is hard to make them interesting to the rest of the world.
-The "i don't have this" kind of photographs, or exotic photographs, or photographs that are dependent on what is happening around us and we don't have control. These are more trivial to take in the sense that we have to choose a point of view that is (on the exotic pictures case) either not condescending and judgemental or one that is purposely full of our character and opinions. On the ephemere events and things we can't control case, there's always this idea that we stopped a moment that will never exist again, and by taking a picture of it, we make it last longer than it shouldve, and very often we don't stop something that really represents what happened, but rather something that will be subconsciously representative of what we felt at that moment. Instictive photography is very personnal and at the same time extremely detached from our consciousness.
- The "i have this idea" kind of photographs. Photographs that rely on a pre-established concept and represent a thought rather than a feeling.

i think i take all three kinds and i understand now why i've always thought i didn't have any "style" in my photographs, but that's because they each represent a different process of thought or non-thoughts...

yeah. anyway